Dream a Dream of Solitude

Updating...

Mon, 04 May 2009 00:44:38 GMT

Here are a few things you might all want to know, since it's been so long...
1.) Not dead.
2.) Not in GA.
3.) Still down, still amazing.
4.) Trying to better life and doing well so far.
5.) Missing people, places and things.
6.) Without a phone or constant computer access, but loving it. :D

Well...

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 21:53:18 GMT

Shit is pretty great on one hand and kinda shitty on the other.
That's all you need to know.
Apart from that, Matt is the best.
:]

The GOTJ....and stuff. [FUCK STUFF.]

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 17:07:17 GMT

So..it was pretty much the best. :]
I got to go with Matt. ^_^ ^_^
Ahhh.....but the woods got kinda old.
I was impressed with Twiztid and ICP wasn't bad either.
Needless to say just like last year...."I'm totally going to bring everything next year, I'll be ready!!"
Hah......yeah right, but at least I didn't another sun stroke thingy.
That's about it.
It's Matt, Brandi, Anton and I for now, and Anton's leaving tomorrow.
Doug dropped us all off about ehhh....an hour-ish ago, but I gotta say I was sad to see him go.
We chanted a lot of stuff...
and hmm.....pissed some dumb bitch off by doing such chanting...
What the fuck?
It was hilarious....
"Show your stretch marks."
HA HA. You fat shit.
I hope you cried, LOTS.
All in all the GOTJ was perfect.
YEEEEAH BUDDY.
I can't wait until next year, maybe by then I'll know how to be a real juggalo.
;]
Hehehe....
We even got to smoke some bud with KING GORDY.
That's the shiiiiiiiiit knukka.
I might update tomorrow, not that too much besides rest and smoking will be going on.
Errr......:Ramble ramble:.
Annnnnnnnnnnnd...
Cut.

:] Oh....yes.

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 16:13:01 GMT

`Matthew will be here in like....9 hours. i can't breathe. I'm so happy. I...I'm so happy.

On an ordinary day
The extraordinary way
You take what I can give and you treasure it
On an ordinary day
The extraordinary way
You turn to me and say, I believe in this

.:JynX:.
XoXo.

Happiness.

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 17:06:53 GMT

With everything said and done, I'm happy. I've got my best friend, my sister, my fucking hetero lifemate, right by my side.
I've got an old homie, whom is back in my life and hoping to be a big part of her's.
I've got my kitty. I love you fuzzy kitty. :']
I've got him...
and he's supposed to be here soon...
I'm so excited. It feels clean...
Everything feels so new.
Tee hee hee..
I hope the Gathering is just as amazing as it always is. :D
Hello, GOTJ 2008, I'm on my way baby!!!!
:]
Only thing I need now is a hundred bucks to make sure he's here.

.:JynX:.
XoXoX

So you lost my friend? Such a sorry end.

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 17:08:20 GMT

Why can't you leave me alone?
You seem to be everywhere I need to be....but it's seriously killing me.
I can't escape you no matter how hard I try.
But...you're no drug.
You're a bad habbit I can't seem to shake, because that dragon's chasing me, and gaining on me.
I feel like I need to slay that mother fucker.

---------------------------------------------------------
.:MaddieSin:.
XoXoX

Here I stand, at the end of the world...

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 16:49:42 GMT

So...shit has been sad.
I've been sad.
I feel empty.
I feel like something's been missing for years.
I don't know what it is.
I hope I find it soon.

My niece is supposed to come over today.
I don't like kids.
Not that much....not for two weeks solid, at least.

I've turned into a bitch.
I don't like it...
but it's not my fault.

Also, fuck you, you are a liar. Like I told her, you're fucking DEAD when I see you.
I miss people...damn it.
My phone's off....so no go on contacting me.
At least not until thursday.
Anyhow.....fuck it....I'm done typing.

.:MaddieSin:.

This is Loooootus, DARK FUCKING LOOOTUS!

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 18:11:52 GMT

It was amazing.
I got wasted.
Chilled with old homies.
had a god damn blast.
:]

.:MaddieSin:.

Plus...WE got Boondox rather than Haystax.

LOTUS!

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 17:47:22 GMT

Me + Brandi + Doug = Lotus show tomorrow! I'm happy. Wooooo! Haha, might paint up, might not. We're making shirts. It's gonna be awesomeeee.

.:MaddieSin:.

Rawk Off!

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 19:18:45 GMT

LOL! This is a great day.
I'm with Brandi, my hetero life mate.
Chris, he's just Chris.
XHAOS, he's amazing!
And Kelli is on the way, I may hop on Kelli as soon as Kelli is here, it's been years!
:D
Everything is good in the world today!
Also, I think Dark Lotus is going to be amazing!
Brandi is likely to come home with me until Sunday! :D

hehehe!
YAY!
I'm grand!

P.s. Talk shit, get hit. Don't assume you know what I'm doing.

Chris and I...

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 11:16:37 GMT

We're watching a movie, then going to Kroger.
Brandi is asleeeep.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeoooo!

.:MaddieSin:.

Wow...

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 21:21:48 GMT

What the FUCK was I thinking when I was younger and posting on here?
Hahaha....nice. EPIC FAIL. Oh well, I'm re activating my account.
Yeah, a lot has been going on, I moved back to GA.
I lost friends, I gained self respect.
I write more now, and paint less.
I wish I had more free time.
Also, I'm looking for a job, almost every day.
Ummm...I guess that's all for now.

.:MaddieSin:.

it's a good day

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 22:01:39 GMT

things are looking up again...im going to GA on the 21st and staying 'till the 26th...i can't wait to see Patrick! He's gonna be so excited...I know I am...I almost cried when mom told me! IM SO FREAKIN' HAPPY!!!!! <3

~*JynX*~
XoXoX
MMFCL =D

a look at life...

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 22:04:47 GMT

So I got to thinking today...i really think I fucked up. I quit school, I wasnt learning anything I don't already know and they were way behind what high school should learn. That's why I quit...and a lot of people made fun of me too...I know...Im a pussy. I just feel like now that I've quit school I'll never be anything..ya know? I sighned a paper that said I can never attend school in FL again...I don't goto night school like I should...Im lazy...I don't know what to do...I think Im going to get a job when I go back home...I really miss my mommy :( I need to think things out...clearly this time...i feel like this could be the one thing...that I'll regret most in life. Im sad...and I did this to myself. It is what I wanted to do...really and truly...but lately everyone is on my case about things...and that really hurts.

any advice?

~*Madison*~
XOXOX

My weeks off...

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 15:28:02 GMT

As you know I don't goto school anymore...I've tried the whole "night shcool" thing...it just didnt work out as well as I hoped it would. But look...Im not going to goto this fuckin' shit hole of a schooll just to learn shit i know already...and to be made a fool of every day...end of story! Im getting another job soon...I hope atleast....

Moving on...
These passed days at Erin's house have been good to me. i think it was time I got a break from my Dad. He means well...I hope. Yeah so I'll be back in Panama City on the 10th..then it's off to GA for a few days around the 17th or 22nd...YAY GA!...I can't wait...maybe I can see Patrick for more than a few hours...I hope (again).

Moving on (again)...
So the last few times I did my hair...let us say...it could have looked better...so now Im just gonna make it all Dark Purple with black Low Lights...sound good?...I DON'T CARE!!!! hehe...Okay....I think that just about does it...oh annnnnd....

WOO GLASSES!

WOO BRESTACLES!

WOO RAMEN!!!!

wOO!

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 00:25:10 GMT

Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me.

It can only be one word.

No more.

Then copy & paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you.

i am meth...

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 08:02:39 GMT

I am meth

I destroy homes, I tear families apart,
I take your children, and that's just the start.
I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold,
the sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.
If you need me, remember I'm easily found,
I live all around you - in schools and in town.
I live with the rich, I live with the poor,
I live down the street, and maybe next door.
I'm made in a lab, but not like you think,
I can be made under the kitchen sink.
In your child's closet, and even in the woods,
if this scares you to death, well it certainly should.
I have many names, but there's one you know best,
I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth.
My power is awesome, try me you'll see,
but if you do, you may never break free.
Just try me once and I might let you go,
but try me twice, and I'll own your soul.
When I possess you, you'll steal, and you'll lie,
you do what you have to -- just to get high.
The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms
will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms.
You'll lie to your mother, you'll steal from your dad,
when you see their tears, you should feel sad.
But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,
I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.
I take kids from parents, and parents from kids,
I turn people from God, and separate friends.
I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride,
I'll be with you always -- right by your side.
You'll give up everything - your family, your home,
your friends, your money,
then you'll be alone.
I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give,
when I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.
If you try me be warned - this is no game,
if given the chance, I'll drive you insane.
I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind,
I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine.
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,
the voices you'll hear, from inside your head.
The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see,
I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.
But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart,
that you are mine, and we shall not part.
You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,
but you came to me, not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told,
but you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.
You could have said no, and just walked away,
if you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master, you will be my slave,
I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave.
Now that you have met me, what will you do?
Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.
I can bring more misery that words can tell,
come take my hand, let me lead you to Hell.

Broken Wishes & Fallen Stars

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 13:19:15 GMT

well i just thought about how much i miss all the people i never get to talk to anymore...to name some and why i miss them:

Brandi - youre the best, honestly...i love you mayne.

Tori - i miss you 'cos i never got to tell you goodbye when i moved...:(

Adam - despite all the past drama..you are a true friend and i love you, you are a piece of art

Will - i miss youre sarcastic know it allness...and youre love for music...plus the good advice

Adele - my lil stoner lette....you've got issues but we all do...i miss chillin

Elyse - i miss all the notes we passed...and the pictures of you i had :(

Jesse- My sexy little 1/2 latino...I miss you and our sea penis!!!! :(

***all the ppl that went to JJ Daniel*** - because we're the fucking shit....i miss that school :(

*~ALL the old GALAXY crew~* - we are the shit...i made so many friends there..damn!

...anyone that i have lost contact with or don't talk to much...i miss you so much, i wish that i could see you all again

DEW IT!

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 14:15:10 GMT

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a high powered firearm, either way.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

I FEEL SICK!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 14:50:34 GMT

I THINK IM GONNA PUKE!!!! *bleh*

...I really wish i didnt leave my CD case @ home...Im in the mood for some AJB...

Fuck the Devil Fuck That Shit
We believe in life legit If you diggin what we say, why you throw your soul away?

hmm...

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 14:25:26 GMT

My hair smells like blueberrys....^_^ hehe! Im so hyper, maybe 'cos of all the CANDY I got....hehe...someone was like "hey you look old enough to vote!" it was so funny! ^_^ I don't know why Im in such a good mood but I like it! ^__^

...it just seems like life is getting better!

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *MWAH*

~*MADDIE*~
xoxoxo

***FILL IT IN!!!***

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9.Do I love you?
10. Do you have a crush on me?
11. Would you kiss me?
12. Would you hug me?
13. Physically, what stands out?
14. Emotionally, what stands out?
15. Who is my best friend?
16. What the most surprising thing you have seen me do?
17. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
18. Am I loveable?
19. How long have you known me?
20. Describe me in one word.
21. What was your first impression?
22. Do you still think that way about me now?
23. What do you think my weakness is?
24. Do you think I'll get married?
25. What makes me happy?
26. What makes me sad?
27. What reminds you of me?
28. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
30. When's the last time you saw me?
31. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
32. Do you think I could kill someone?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?

haha..fun stuff!!! ^_^

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 14:19:23 GMT

crimsonreasons's Halloween party:

bluerogue003 dressed as James Polk.
dakevsta dressed as Optimus Prime, though it looked more like Green Lantern.
dakillakingpin dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Gidget Rhinosquirt", though it looked more like a fury.
darkpsycolette dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Ann.
deadpoetjack dressed as a angel.
drowningdollie_ dressed as a zombie.
garbagediablo dressed as a jagged angel.
garmonboziac dressed as a bottle of Qualiepieflu.
merlin_jim dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Erratic Professional.
thelovecat dressed as the main character of "Taxi Driver".
wicked_babie dressed as Mary-Kate Olsen with her very own conjoined Ashley.
xins0mniacdream dressed as a buffalo.
xlook2theskyx dressed as a kicker for the Lions.
xpoisongirl dressed as Lyndon B. Johnson.

Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
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uhh..

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 14:40:13 GMT

BLEH!

woo!

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 13:38:47 GMT

You Are 21 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

tee hee hee...

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 13:00:57 GMT

STUPID HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^_^ xoxoxoxo